Oh yeah, you read right.

Logan totally has baby fever. I kid you not.

Lucas and I are still back and forth about a third baby. There’s part of us that’s nervous about the possibility of another miscarriage. There’s always the chance that something could go wrong, or baby wouldn’t be healthy. If we have two beautiful, healthy kids right now, do we go down the path again? But there’s that other part of us that misses the tiny snuggly newborn. I look at baby clothes and almost cry thinking I might never see clothes like this in my house again. Part of me feels so strongly that we are not complete as a family yet.

It’s such a weird stage to be in. After we had Logan, we knew for sure that we were going to try for Baby #2, no matter what that meant. And while it was the hardest journey of our lives, we have Holly now. Now though, it’s like the decision isn’t a “must”, like it was before. We could not have another baby and be fine or we could have another baby and be fine. It’s like I’m tangled up in the craziest level of limbo ever.

But, if it were up to Logan, we’d be having another baby already. He tells me every.single.day. that he wishes I had another baby in my belly. And actually he wishes that it were another Holly in my belly. I’m still trying to figure out if that means that he wants a sister, or if he really wants a replica of Holly — because both are gonna be hard to pull off. It’s funny though, because I don’t feel like this is something I talk about in front of him a lot. So for him to be so strong willed on having another baby just blows my mind.

He told me the other day that we don’t have enough chairs at his table. There’s two chairs, I said one for him and one for Holly and he quickly pointed out that we need one for the other Holly. He also is dead set on Holly being a big brother [dying over here] just like he is.

We’re not sure what the future holds, but maybe Logan knows something we don’t.

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