Every day I look at Logan and he looks a little different to me, but this week I really feel like he looks SO different from when he was born.
He is such a
big little chunker. He has absolutely no neck to look at now. It’s just two rolls of baby fat. Half of his newborn onesies don’t fit they’re either too snug to fit his plump body, or they’re too short, because now he seems so long. He’s actually wearing a ton of his 3 month onesies…and on Mother’s Day we actually had him in a 9 month onesie. No joke.
This week was the hardest week that we’ve had yet.
Logan was having a really hard time with feedings, naps, and bowel movements. He used to nurse with no problem and would make little farts and poops while he nursed, and would fall fast asleep right after a feeding. Well this week all the sudden he wasn’t nursing right. He would bob his head on and off my boob. When he would latch it would be for a few seconds and he would start screaming. There was no more dirty diapers with nursing, instead he would get a red, red face from pushing and then he’d start screaming. He was starting to spit up way more than he used to. And naps were not happening. He just looked like he was in so much pain.
I had no idea what to do. I took to Facebook and my mom friends and everyone was recommending gas drops and/or gripe water. I went to Walgreens and bought both. I would alternate between the two products throughout the day. They seemed to offer him a little bit of relief, but he still wasn’t the baby I was familiar with.
Then all the sudden yesterday Logan was back to normal. Nursing with no issues. He didn’t seem in pain when he was eating. He would pass right out after he finished eating. And the dirty diapers were coming along again.
Then I started to put two and two together. A few days ago Lucas came down with the stomach flu. The day after Lucas was throwing up is when all this started with Logan. And then yesterday I started feeling the yucky symptoms. It makes me think that for the last three days Logan was actually sick and we didn’t even know it. It was such a relief to see the baby I knew again yesterday. Because all his pain and screaming was really taking a toll on me. It was actually so bad that the second day of it cause me to have a serious melt down. I just couldn’t get him to stop crying and I didn’t know what to do for him. I laid him in the crib and came out crying to Lucas that I was just so overwhelmed. Parenting is no joke.
I have my fingers crossed that today he his the happy baby again that I had yesterday, because it makes life so much easier!
Lets see, what else is the little guy up too. He is really starting to develop his facial expressions. He will all of the sudden bust out in the biggest grin and sometimes I can catch a little laugh. It is the CUTEST thing! He’s also turning in to a huge outdoorsy baby. We take a 2-3 mile walk every morning and he loves to just look around and feel the air on his checks. Lucas likes to take him out on the patio too in the afternoon and he just loves it out there.
Ooh, we also celebrated our first Mother’s Day! Which was so nice. Logan got me a massage and facial coupon that I can use for a day of relaxation and pampering. It was so weird to have everyone telling me Happy Mother’s Day. I guess it just hasn’t sunk in for me yet that I’m a mama. I feel like I just have this new little buddy that I hang out with everyday.
Mom Check Up:
This week I actually feel like I’m back to my old self. The only thing that is not back to it’s old self is my tummy. I still have that deflated belly pooch, but I know once I’m cleared to start working out that should start to go away.
I do also feel like I’m finally getting much more confident and comfortable with my role as mom. Things don’t freak me out as much anymore and everything is just seeming to come second hand to me now. And I think I’m finally used to the lack of sleep because in the day even though I feel tired I ‘m still functioning like normal and almost don’t even notice that I’m tired.
The thing I think I’m struggling with the most right now is letting go of control. Since I’m with Logan all day, everyday, I now have certain ways that I like to do things or think that they should be done. So for me to have someone else watch him or do things differently for him have started to get a little hard. I find myself always wanting to jump in and offer up my two cents. I need to just calm down and go with the flow!